So I love Saturday mornings because I have reserved this time for creating art and listening to my favorite podcast, Art For You Ear by The Jealous Curator and drinking some delicious hot coffee. What can be better?
Remember when life was a bit simpler? I was going through some of the blogs and designs that were popular before 2007. You know, when the internet was way smaller and reading blogs was fun and more personal. Now blogs seem to look like magazines……. beautifully curated but lacking in the personal touches and the messiness. I was in my 20’s during decade 2000-2010 and I was in the process of discovering new things, new art, new ideas. I guess I am feeling nostalgic. Nostalgic for the 90’s and the 2000’s. When social media wasn’t a thing and we still had to meet up to talk with friends. I mean don’t get me wrong, there are a lot of really great things now and of course social media has allowed me to stay in touch and rediscover old friends but I guess I am missing the simpler times.
I don’t know……..I guess I am tired of the fast paced life we live now. I miss discovering new ideas and being so inspired. I miss just going out with friends and not having a phone. I guess I don’t really have to have a phone now either but society has changed…….it is how everyone stays connected. Even jobs require a phone now. The point I am trying to make is that I feel like life is way too fast paced now and I am trying to slow down. I am trying to really find out what is important to me and what makes me happy. What is it that makes me happy? I am trying to simplify. I am trying to connect more on a personal level to others. I want to journal more, and take long walks in gardens, sit on a bench in a botanical garden and just sketch and admire the beauty around. I want to take a walk in the woods or hike up a mountain. I want to breathe fresh air and feel the beauty around me.
So yes, I am really having an introspective moment. Lately I have been examining life and what it is that I want out of life. I want to surround myself with love and harmony and peace. Having recently moved to Florida, I find that I am examining what makes me smile and gives me happiness. The move has been stressful and I think that this stress has allowed me to start thinking more about what the meaning of life is and what it means to be happy. I am not gonna lie, as beautiful as Florida is, I don’t think this is the place for me. It's quite shocking. I have always thought I would love to live next to a beach and be around palm trees and now I am living near a beach with plenty of palm trees and I am not feeling satisfied. I still love the beach and palm trees but what I am finding is that I need a little more nature in my life and a little more calmness. The area I have moved to is very populated and busy and I am realizing that I need to live somewhere a little less busy. Maybe somewhere with a mountain but still close to a beach. A place with lots of trees and quaint little mom and pop shops. I cherish the unique. A place where, I can walk down the street and not feel afraid. A place full of magical gardens and flowers and foliage. Does this place exist? I think so and now I got to find it.
Another aspect of life I am realizing is that I really need to either be working on my creative business full time or working on my business and having a job but a job I really really enjoy. I just can’t do anything I am not passionate about. It literally hurts me. I don’t need to be super rich or fancy, I just need to make enough from my art and my cool awesome day job to be able to live a comfortable life and be able to support myself and my children. Yes, I ultimately want to be a full-time artist and that is the goal I am working on but I do not mind working a job in addition to my art business. I just need the job to be fun and creative and inspiring. Seriously life is too short to be bored and unhappy.
So yes this is a long post and I am a little all over the place but you know I just had to write this down. I had to share this on my blog (does anyone even read blogs anymore?). Hopefully I inspire someone out there that is feeling similar to what I am feeling.
You know I get scared a lot. I am afraid sometimes of what people may think of me Online. It’s so crazy and weird because in person I don’t really care but online I am much more timid. Although I am an introvert I am more so on the internet. Maybe it’s the idea that my thoughts will be on this form of media for years. Or maybe I am afraid that I will be judged and people won’t like me or like my art. I am not really sure, but tonight as I sit on the blow up mattress at my dad’s house in hot and humid Florida, I have decided that I want to write and to share. Online is the new platform and it has been for a while and now I am going to embrace it. I am ready………….
So why the change? Well honestly I want to express myself. I want to connect with other like-minded people. I want to be honest. I want to spread inspiration to others through my art as well as my writing. No pretenses here. The world has become too fancy. You know…….Like everything has to be perfect. Instagrm has to be perfect. There is even classes now on how to monetize your social media accounts and how to make them visually attractive for followers. And yes I get it. I mean I love to be visually inspired. Heck I am an artist and visual is my language but I like imperfection. I like run on sentences from a writer that writes with excitement as if trying to finish a sentence while catching their breath. I like imperfect pages in physical books, I like when artists make mistakes and don’t cover it up. I guess I find perfection in the imperfection.
I am in transition now and the anxiety and stress has kind of awakened a new desire to live life even more creatively and to inspire as many people as possible. So I am starting to plan and focus more on what I want to achieve as an artist. But in the meantime here is what’s happening in my life right now.
My husband is getting out of the military after 4 years in service. So now we will both be veterans. Anyways, my dad and stepmom moved to the Tampa bay region in Florida a few years ago from NJ (we are all from NJ). So, I talked my husband into relocating to Florida instead of NJ. He agreed. So about a week ago, I came down to Florida by myself and I am now staying at my dad’s and looking for jobs. My husband and the kids are still on the military post in the mid-west and will come down to Florida in about a month.
That is a lot of pressure!!!!! It is crazy how expensive everything is and how earnings and cost of living just do not match up. I quit my job as an Army Civilian with the hopes that I could find a federal job here in Florida. Well again that has not been too easy either. I finished my Masters in Public Health a few months ago and am trying to obtain a job in the field but you know employers always get you with the experience requirement. I mean seriously how does one even get experience? Doesn’t someone have to actually hire me so that I can get experience in the field of Public Health? Of course my dream is to be a full time Artist but in the mean time I got a family to support so job hunting it is for now.
Now I don’t want to sound negative or anything. Yes it has been hard to transition to a new location and have to start all over but I am keeping a positive outlook. I got my affirmations, and meditations and a few manifestation books ready. I also do pray and I am hoping that somehow everything will work out. So I mean between God, my Angel guides, Spirit Guides, Guides, and helpful people in my life I am thinking things will be ok.
Hoping the next post will have an amazing update. In the meantime I am gonna keep creating art, listening to cool and fun podcasts, being brave, knowing that I am amazing and CAN get an awesome job that also pays well and being positive.
Love and Happiness
Until next time!!!!!!
Oh and here some art that I have created while in Florida.
Well, it has been somewhat chaotic here with all the moving boxes and transitioning to a new location. It's been fun being in Kansas and I have grown a tremendous amount while residing here both as an artist and personally. Hopefully the transition and the move will go smoothly and my family and I can get settled in our new home.
In the meantime, I have been creating lots of abstract patterns for the #100dayproject on Instagram. You can check out some of my art via the hashtag #100daysofabstractpattern or you can just click on my Instagram page. My patterns haven't been really cohesive but rather loose and intuitive. There have been quite a few floral patterns that have made their way into my 100 day collection.
Anyway, hopefully by the time I write my new post I should be at my new location and settling in. It will definitely take some adjusting but I think the new move will be a welcome change.
I have always been very interested in death. My mom was a very spiritual person and was very open minded to other realities, the afterlife, and synchronicities. She transitioned from this world and to the next at the age of 27. I was 10 at the time and my life changed forever. I have been very interested in exploring the meaning of life, the universe, and many levels of consciousness. Through some of my own experience and feelings and reading hundreds of books, I feel like I am discovering more each day and constantly increasing awareness. William Buhlman, an author on out of body experience, has some amazing thoughts on life and the different stages of consciousness. We are multidimensional beings that exist on many levels of reality. The body is just a vehicle that we use to have a physical experience. Upon death our consciousness shifts into a different realty, the next level. We have many energy bodies for different levels of reality. These different “bodies” are vehicles for our consciousness. Life, the world, the multiverse are complex and there is so much more!
On art and trying to be like other artists. First, there is nothing wrong with finding inspiration in other artists ‘art. I love to look at art and find tremendous inspiration. I also learn a lot from other artists in terms of technique, color combination, and design elements. The important thing to keep in mind is that we are all unique. Just like our DNA, we all have our own signature style. It is easy to look at art and think, “oh this artist is amazing and I need to create like them.” These last 3 weeks have been difficult for me. Not only have I had some extra stress due to planning a move, I have been in a creative slump which has now passed but will most likely occur again. During this slump, I tried a few different painting techniques that were inspired by other artist and I just didn’t feel good about it. I wasn’t copying or anything like that but I was using some of their style to try different techniques. This is okay to do when you are learning and exploring but always keep in mind that you are unique and your art will be unique to you. During this period I did not really like what I was creating. It just wasn’t me and it wasn’t fun. What I learned is that it is okay to appreciate and love other art but don’t try to change your style. Your style will naturally change over time but there always be a unique signature style that is yours. So remember, just be you!
And in other news, I am getting ready to move in a few months. My husband is getting out of the military and we are thinking about moving to Florida. I am excited about this but also scared. I have to find a job, find an apartment, and find a good school system for my children. And then there is looking at our savings and making sure we have enough money. In addition, moving can be exhausting. So there are days where I feel super tired and just plain unmotivated. Really hoping for a smooth transition!
Sunny Tropical Abstract Portraits
Recently I have been creating funky colorful abstract portraits. These abstract faces are kind of like my fashion girl art but just more abstracted and of course most of these girls have fabulous earrings (cause who doesn't love long crazy earrings?).
These would be great in interior designing.
Saturday Morning Art and The Jealous Curator Podcast
It has become somewhat of a tradition that every Saturday I wake up early get a cup of coffee or redbull, go into my art studio and create art while listening to Danielle Krysa's podcast from The Jealous Curator (Art for your ear). This is one of my favorite podcast. Danielle has a new episode every Saturday Morning and I cherish this quiet time. My kids and husband are usually sleeping in while I get some me time and go to my art room for some fun art making, delicious coffee and some amazing conversations.
I know this is a weird topic, but do you ever mourn memories?
For example, yesterday we had our work holiday party. The party consisting of the physical therapy department, occupational health and chiropractic clinic (I work at chiro). Anyway, I work on an Army installation so there was a mix of military and civilian personnel at the party.
It was a really great time. We all met at a restaurant/brewery and just joked, talked, had fun. Lots of my co-workers came with their spouses and young children. Many of the young soldiers (20-30 year olds) came with their young children. As I watched the young children playing and the parents running after them, memories flooded me which made me happy and sad at the same time.
I remember when I was a young navy corpsman (medical) working at a pediatric unit at a Navy Hospital. I remember many holiday parties where I would bring my young adorable children. I remember chasing them around the floor and making sure they didn’t touch something dangerous or fall. I remember the laughter and the comradery among my navy shipmates and civilian co-workers. I remember the bond that we all formed.
It’s weird at the time, I couldn’t wait to get out of the Navy. I would daydream of the future and all the wonderful possibilities. I couldn’t wait to graduate from college and move away from Virginia. And now…….. Here I am in the future; 10 years into the future. My kids are teenagers now. My co-workers who are my dear friends have moved to different parts of the world. Some got out of the Navy and moved back home for new adventures, some stayed in the Navy and are now in Japan, Italy and so many other places. And some of the civilian nurses are still working on the pediatric floor at the Naval Hospital. A few have passed away. Transitioned from this plane to the next. I miss them dearly. I miss them all. They made such a difference in my life.
So I am mourning memories. Wishing I could have enjoyed those precious moments more. But I also must treasure my current moments because soon the present time will also be a distant memory. A memory that takes you back. A memory that is triggered by scents, a wisp of a cool breeze that tickles your skin in a way that brings you back to your younger self, music that awakens memories of falling in love, events that remind you of old friends.
So, I mourn my memories and cherish them at the same time and realize that the people around me have truly affected my life. It’s all about the people. The people we meet during our journey that allow us to grow. It’s the people that are important.
So Cherish those memories but remember to live in the present and enjoy the now because now will soon be a memory.
Some more quick Art Videos: To update you guys (my wonderful readers) on what's going on at the studio (aka, the tornado shelter room and a small section of my bedroom).
Quick video of some art that I have been making. Some Art lettering with floral and botanical drawings, wooden earring, and art on envelopes.
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Drawing an abstract painting/drawing using a bariety of materials. Still not used to doing my own videos ( I know I know.......I need to get with the times). So please excuse any minor editing mistakes. Enjoy
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