I have really bad anxiety. Worries constantly flood my mind and my imagination runs wild. What if's fill my head and then my body begins to react. Dizziness, butterflies in my stomach, not being able to concentrate, feeling like running away.... all these consume me. It has been a difficult journey living with constant fear. Fear that something bad will happen. Fear that something bad will happen to a friend or family member. Fear of so many things. I have dealt with this constant anxiety for years now.
And now, I want to take my life back. I realize that I just simply cannot continue to be paralyzed by what if's and the constant hypothetical scenario. I need to breathe and live my life in positivity. This is my life and I want to live without the constant nagging of a bad scenario or outcome. I want to be happy. I want to experience the joy of life and really live not just exist.
So, today, I take my life back. No my anxiety will not just vanish but I will work on bettering myself. I will breathe deeply, meditate, do art, journal, walk in nature, and commune with God/Great Spirit/Universe.
"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience." This quote by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin is beautiful and really helps me deal with my anxiety. We are so much more and we are here on Earth to experience life and learn. So while I am here, I need to live, be happy, create positive change, and be kind.
Today, I take my life back.