I don’t know……..I guess I am tired of the fast paced life we live now. I miss discovering new ideas and being so inspired. I miss just going out with friends and not having a phone. I guess I don’t really have to have a phone now either but society has changed…….it is how everyone stays connected. Even jobs require a phone now. The point I am trying to make is that I feel like life is way too fast paced now and I am trying to slow down. I am trying to really find out what is important to me and what makes me happy. What is it that makes me happy? I am trying to simplify. I am trying to connect more on a personal level to others. I want to journal more, and take long walks in gardens, sit on a bench in a botanical garden and just sketch and admire the beauty around. I want to take a walk in the woods or hike up a mountain. I want to breathe fresh air and feel the beauty around me.
So yes, I am really having an introspective moment. Lately I have been examining life and what it is that I want out of life. I want to surround myself with love and harmony and peace. Having recently moved to Florida, I find that I am examining what makes me smile and gives me happiness. The move has been stressful and I think that this stress has allowed me to start thinking more about what the meaning of life is and what it means to be happy. I am not gonna lie, as beautiful as Florida is, I don’t think this is the place for me. It's quite shocking. I have always thought I would love to live next to a beach and be around palm trees and now I am living near a beach with plenty of palm trees and I am not feeling satisfied. I still love the beach and palm trees but what I am finding is that I need a little more nature in my life and a little more calmness. The area I have moved to is very populated and busy and I am realizing that I need to live somewhere a little less busy. Maybe somewhere with a mountain but still close to a beach. A place with lots of trees and quaint little mom and pop shops. I cherish the unique. A place where, I can walk down the street and not feel afraid. A place full of magical gardens and flowers and foliage. Does this place exist? I think so and now I got to find it.
Another aspect of life I am realizing is that I really need to either be working on my creative business full time or working on my business and having a job but a job I really really enjoy. I just can’t do anything I am not passionate about. It literally hurts me. I don’t need to be super rich or fancy, I just need to make enough from my art and my cool awesome day job to be able to live a comfortable life and be able to support myself and my children. Yes, I ultimately want to be a full-time artist and that is the goal I am working on but I do not mind working a job in addition to my art business. I just need the job to be fun and creative and inspiring. Seriously life is too short to be bored and unhappy.
So yes this is a long post and I am a little all over the place but you know I just had to write this down. I had to share this on my blog (does anyone even read blogs anymore?). Hopefully I inspire someone out there that is feeling similar to what I am feeling.