Wow Things have changed

My life is so different now

This has been a year so full of changes it is hard for me to believe. I divorced my ex-husband a year ago and now live with my boyfriend in beautiful St. Petersburg, FL. The divorce was much needed and of course I care about my ex-husband and love him but the divorce was well over due. After 18 years of marriage, he is still my family. We have two beautiful kids together so its important to get along. Now with that said, he really doesn't talk to me and that saddens me. My son who is 17 years old lives with him and my daughter who is 18 years old was living with me up until a month ago. She joined the Army so she is now on her own journey.

Sometimes its hard to believe that my kids are grown up and that my life today is vastly different than my life two years ago. It feels like we are all separated and living our own lives now. I try to see my son as often as possible. I miss him so much and it is hard having him live away from me. And my daughter...….my beautiful princess is now in the Army. I miss her so dearly. 

There are days I just feel like crying. I get emotional at the weirdest times. Its no a bad emotional, its just a getting used to things being different.

So currently, I am taking it slow and trying to figure out my next step in life. Focusing on my art and getting into a spiritual practice. I have been mediating using binaural beats and I am really enjoying the practice. I am also doing a lot of reading and journaling. I feel that I have to get my thoughts and idea on paper. I write, I doodle and I scribble intuitively allowing the marks to form intricate shapes and this really allows for clarity.