You know I get scared a lot. I am afraid sometimes of what people may think of me Online. It’s so crazy and weird because in person I don’t really care but online I am much more timid. Although I am an introvert I am more so on the internet. Maybe it’s the idea that my thoughts will be on this form of media for years. Or maybe I am afraid that I will be judged and people won’t like me or like my art. I am not really sure, but tonight as I sit on the blow up mattress at my dad’s house in hot and humid Florida, I have decided that I want to write and to share. Online is the new platform and it has been for a while and now I am going to embrace it. I am ready………….
So why the change? Well honestly I want to express myself. I want to connect with other like-minded people. I want to be honest. I want to spread inspiration to others through my art as well as my writing. No pretenses here. The world has become too fancy. You know…….Like everything has to be perfect. Instagrm has to be perfect. There is even classes now on how to monetize your social media accounts and how to make them visually attractive for followers. And yes I get it. I mean I love to be visually inspired. Heck I am an artist and visual is my language but I like imperfection. I like run on sentences from a writer that writes with excitement as if trying to finish a sentence while catching their breath. I like imperfect pages in physical books, I like when artists make mistakes and don’t cover it up. I guess I find perfection in the imperfection. I am in transition now and the anxiety and stress has kind of awakened a new desire to live life even more creatively and to inspire as many people as possible. So I am starting to plan and focus more on what I want to achieve as an artist. But in the meantime here is what’s happening in my life right now. My husband is getting out of the military after 4 years in service. So now we will both be veterans. Anyways, my dad and stepmom moved to the Tampa bay region in Florida a few years ago from NJ (we are all from NJ). So, I talked my husband into relocating to Florida instead of NJ. He agreed. So about a week ago, I came down to Florida by myself and I am now staying at my dad’s and looking for jobs. My husband and the kids are still on the military post in the mid-west and will come down to Florida in about a month. That is a lot of pressure!!!!! It is crazy how expensive everything is and how earnings and cost of living just do not match up. I quit my job as an Army Civilian with the hopes that I could find a federal job here in Florida. Well again that has not been too easy either. I finished my Masters in Public Health a few months ago and am trying to obtain a job in the field but you know employers always get you with the experience requirement. I mean seriously how does one even get experience? Doesn’t someone have to actually hire me so that I can get experience in the field of Public Health? Of course my dream is to be a full time Artist but in the mean time I got a family to support so job hunting it is for now. Now I don’t want to sound negative or anything. Yes it has been hard to transition to a new location and have to start all over but I am keeping a positive outlook. I got my affirmations, and meditations and a few manifestation books ready. I also do pray and I am hoping that somehow everything will work out. So I mean between God, my Angel guides, Spirit Guides, Guides, and helpful people in my life I am thinking things will be ok. Hoping the next post will have an amazing update. In the meantime I am gonna keep creating art, listening to cool and fun podcasts, being brave, knowing that I am amazing and CAN get an awesome job that also pays well and being positive. Love and Happiness Until next time!!!!!! Oh and here some art that I have created while in Florida.
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Eve Novak
9/4/2017 10:27:58 am
Hi there, I just found you!
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9/15/2017 06:37:20 pm
Thank you so much for your wonderful comment!!!!!! I assume you are also an artist. Do you have a website, I'd love to check out some of your art!!!
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Eve
9/19/2017 11:45:41 pm
I'm always making something (not art, exactly), but I don't post anything. Leave a Reply. |
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